"Criminals" have hearts too.
This post is not meant to compare or out-do..... I really hope my pitiful life will make some of you see that you have so much still...
I'm a convicted felon. Convicted in 2006, and since then I have been a burden on every soul I encounter
Before my felony, I had every reason to hate my life... Low self esteem, mom and dad didn't pay enough attention to me as a child, I had a learning disability, intelligent, overlooked, overweight, watched 2 abusive parents kill each other, was insulted by my Mom because I wasn't beautiful and thin like my sister.
Then attained a drinking and drug problem I guess as an inevitable result of my life, being constantly out of control and disrespectful I finally got kicked out and ended up in a house where I ruined my life truly.
Although I must suffer the consequences for the crimes committed, 5 years later after I've changed my life and lived the straight and narrow, the world still turns me away like garbage. A convicted piece of criminal garbage. Because of this I can't get a job, the jobs I did get one has screwed me over so harshly that it messed with my eligibility for unemployment and now I (jobless, and my Fiance barely makes enough to feed us) have to pay 6,000$ to the government. On top of that, I'm waiting for my cousin to throw us out ( or should I say his skanky girl friend of 1 month and newly pregnant). We have no idea what we are going to do.
The only reason we are in this position is my fault. If my Fiance never met me he'd be with another girl, prospering living on his own. Now he's supporting his loser criminal partner, and I have NOTHING to offer anyone. Each and every one of you have something so powerful that people like me don't have maybe your forgetting? You can still choose, at least put food on the tables, at least GET a job.
Everyone deserves a second chance and I never got one. Remember when you feel worthless that you DO have some of the vital things to survive, and live prosperously. I can't help anyone. I always need help I am homeless without my fiance and where we're at is the last place we have to go.
After that? I'm not sure. Its so terrifying for me to think what if he abandons me in the end? As a woman that situation is so dangerous I feel in danger everyday. You all can still CHOOSE....I have no choices anymore. I will soon be checking myself into an institution for assistance. And partially to gain proof of need of assistance. Maybe after I'm released I can help him. I am truly a waist of space. Imagine your life as mine. Losing all opportunities, hopes and dreams. When all my dream is NOW? Is to help the love of my life financially so we can live.... and I can't because no one truly gives a crap about this criminal. They won't even let me work a BS minimum wage job so we can breathe ...
Always remember the most powerful thing in existence is CHOICE.... when you lose that right, you truly lose.