Why do I self-destruct when ever I have anything good in my life
Since I was a child I have always ruined anything I have had good in my life. But I have noticed it more in the last couple of years.
I'm 32 now so I need help in solving this problem. When I do have some thing good like my girlfriend who I have been with for nearly 3 years who I was very happy with, I ruined it through lying, and then the worse thing, cheating on her.
I love her very much but for some reason if I have something good I can only think of negative thoughts from my past.