Very Depressed

by Victoria
(Louisiana)

I am 44 yrs. old and have been depressed most of my life. I have no confidence, low self-esteem, no energy, etc. I have gone to Psychiatrist, Psychologist, drs., counselors and have been on different medications.(Mostly all of them) Nothing seems to help.


I walk for pleasure but still do not find any relief...I have even had people pray over me and I still can't shake this feeling. I cannot think straight and my thinking is very cloudy, I am scared to lose my job, I forget things and have really bad headaches.

My family does not understand what I am going through and I do not have many friends. I have no outlet. This is very hard on me...I'm just so sad and lonely! I am married and my husband does not understand me, he just does not understand me, but he continues on staying, not sure why!!! I am just very bored with life, I have lost my meaning and purpose in my life. I am just not fulfilled in life. I am not sure what to do and where to go?!

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The agony of 'depression'
by: Anonymous

I know EXACTLY how you feel. I have the same situation going on inside of me day in and day out, every single second of my 44 years of life. I have tried, over the years every single way imaginable to find help, including electric shock therapy, which, needless to say, did not 'cure' this devastating curse. I had a husband, the marriage ended. Due to my lack of self love and esteem, I then got into a very toxic and unhealthy relationship with a man who seems to get some pleasure keeping me and my feelings about myself, as low as they could possibly be! People just do not understand or have any true compassion for people like is. I don't have the answers for us, I'm so sorry to admit it .

I wish there some miracle 'cure' for us. Please just know that, although it doesn't seem like it , there MUST be some reason why we are chosen to suffer this way. I just keep telling myself to ALWAYS remember to appreciate and to be absolutely grateful for the blessings we do have, which if look around, are more numerous than we realize.
The origin of these feelings
by: Anonymous

You say you have been depressed most of your life, have you learned from all this therapy what caused it?
In my case, for years on and off I used to get depressed, and did not know why. I used to have this feeling of sadness at the core of me.
As I grew older, I realised because of my past, I had to be my own best psychiatrist. I went back to my childhood, and remembered incidents that might have contributed to me feeling this way. I researched on the internet,all manner of things connected to it. I then realised that I thought it was my fault for all those years how I felt about myself,and learnt it was my brother who had hated me all my life,and wanted to keep me from getting on in Life. He set out to keep my self esteem low and be ashamed and treat me as a nothing. He is a Narcissist. I changed overnight. Everything made sense now. My mother allowed it to happen.
What I am saying is, there has to be something there, that you are not aware of yet. You are married, and your husband has stayed because he loves you, otherwise he would have gone by now. Search into your depths and your subconscious might throw something invaluable up.
Very depressed
by: Anonymous

You are not alone in this, there are a lot of people out there who feel exactly the same. Depression is very real to those who suffer from it and although medication can help, there is a need to find the one which really does help.

All I can say to you that no one can understand any situation until they themselves have walked in the shoes that you are walking in. You have to have experienced real depression to understand someone else who is also going through it.
You will find the solution and help to understand and cope with your feelings of isolation, somewhere there will be someone who can understand and help you. It is just a matter of finding them.
There are alternative therapies which have in some cases been of help. Keep looking and do not give up.

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