by April Phelps
(Malta, Il, 60150)
Lately I cannot sleep. I am stressed out about my son being in Marine Boot Camp, about my male friend's wife because she thinks I like him that way, about my biological dad still ignoring me after 37 years, and about my mom calling me all the time.
I don't know what to do, for I also live alone, although I do take health classes at a place called the "Reality House." I also see a therapist there. It's just that lately with my son's graduation day from Marine Corps Boot Camp, I get emotionally upset over the smallest detail, and I let it consume me because I will fixate (so my mom tells me-lol) on it. I think I am thinking about thngs I feel I don't have; like my son, like my male friend's wife's trust, like my biological dad, and like boundaries with my mother.
What should I do when I am feeling overrun by it all? I take Abilify for bipolar to help with the anxiety and depression, but lately I just cannot sleep. Help! I also do not drive, so it's not like I can go out readily and meet new people. I am just feeling stuck, both in my life and in a rural town of about 1,600 people.