Self defeat, self worth
(Bay arkansas )
I am turning 29 in a week and have not accomplished anything in life. I worked hard at my dead end jobs since I was 16 and i remember getting paid 5 something an hour. I use to be very proud of being a CNA and helping people but ever since I moved to a new state to a hospital environment that changed. The staff made me feel like your purpose meant nothing and i got treated badly by everyone I tried to help.
It was never this bad before and i never felt humiliated or ashamed of who I was. I have a college degree but can't find a job for it. I wanted to start my own path and career in my field of psychology and mental health counseling. Working on my masters degree seems to be the only thing that puts a smile on my face. I am around in laws that brag about their fancy jobs and accomplishments and it makes my self esteem low. I have become self destructive and negative. My husband and children suffer over it and i don't know what to do. I'm tired of struggling with dead end jobs and feeling like minimum wage is all I am worth. My efforts are never recognized or praised by my employers even when I break my back to go the extra miles. I have been a very humble person but I am fed up with the way my life turned out.