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Just looking through some of the comments and stories from all the other people and I can directly relate to a lot of you. In my own story, I too feel worthless, depressed, and anxious a lot of the time and sometimes find it hard to even get out of the bed. I try to intellectualise all aspects of my being, being right or wrong, the shoulds or shouldnts or the have tos, or living my life to please others or blaming, often to the detriment of my well being.
For as long as I can remember I have cared what everyone else thought about me and have never truly felt independent of myself, but am now beginning to come home to myself more now due to an interpersonal communications class I am taking. In this class we learn that every thought, feeling, action or word by someone (including yourself) is entirely 100% about them and is not in the slightest about you. Everything you do, say, think etc is about you and a message for you. I think it is important to remember also that not everybody is in the same place so many people might not understand you. If you personalize any expression of where THEIR at, then you lose the inner stronghold of YOUR unique, sacred and beautiful self.
When each of us was born we were not born anxious or depressed or sad or paranoid. It is these aspects of ourselves that we had to create in order to adapt and survive our exterior worlds and to see these as problems is not the answer. Neither is blaming others, parents etc as they to had their own issues and nobody CONSCIOUSLY wants to hurt another.
I believe the answer lies in seeing these aspects of yourself as ingenious creations you developed and embracing them as 100% necessary for your survival until now and asking them 'what as a friend are you trying to tell me?'. Don't hate them, embrace them, as hard as it is. All communication reflects our interior and we have to own it and become responsible for ours, nobody elses. Hope this helps someone. Keep on your Journey. Lots of love Xxxxxxx