by lack confidence
This is the first time I'm confessing my problems, Nobody except you(the reader) knows I have had these feelings all my life.
I'm a 26 year old male, I've procrastinated all my life in most to-do things. Especially when I'm not enjoying it.
I wasn't very good at studies in school and repeated three years, in different classes/grades. As a result, I passed out of my school at the age of 21. I was always made fun of by other students and teachers, I saw kids junior to me become my seniors and was under constant mental stress throughout my short-lived academic career.
After school I never really went to college simply because I never scored enough to get into a good one, so I applied for a correspondence (distance) normal bachelors course instead. I failed my 1st year and discontinued my
I am also a coward. However, I was under the impression that I had gotten over that feeling by indulging in fights whenever I could but sometime last year I was bullied by 3 guys in a mall and the same adrenalin rush happened which causes my body to spaz out and makes me feel completely uncomfortable and helpless.
On the other hand, I have been a guy of many talents, and began working as a musician straight out of school.
I know my life is not a total disaster and I know I can improve things. I want to become more active and want to get rid of my cowardice. Just don't know how? and from where to start??