My Life Totallyyy Sux Emotionally and Sometimes Physicallyy -__-
(In a Cave)
Me as of Now, i have no pics of back then cuzz i hated my looks soo much
Ok where do I start...Well I was born I guess, one of the ugliest kids you've ever seen, big lips, crooked nose, and 1 big ear and 1 normal ear. I think I can honestly say I was born deformed, and retarded.
Throughout my young life it was hell I just got uglier and I pretty much made no friends whatsoever through school maybe 1 or 2 and I had no effect on girls whatsoever which really hurt me a lot emotional wise. I got picked on because of my ear problem and hated by most because of the jealousy of all the nice things I had (I was brought up well off) I believe junior was the worst. any pictures or memories I have from back then I get rid of or block out because I hate it sooo much. I blame God for every problem I have in my life and it makes sense because he has the power to help and change me but he just chooses to sit back on his ass and do nothing and this whole "you're unique in your own way crap don't cut it, I don't believe he exists pure and simple.
Now we can fast forward to now, 1 year after high school I changed and now I'm like one of the most popular kids around, decent looking to an extent still no girlfriend though and only like 1 or 2 friends nobody wants to date me around here because they have reputations or something that they don't want to ruin. Anyways that's just a quick look into my sh**ty life, I wake up hating myself and I go to bed hating myself, I depend on my family for everything, I have no direction in life (too stupid for a real job and school) If I had a girlfriend it would help sooo much but I don't think that will ever happen. Questions or comments people? Thanx