just... LIFE.

by Katie

Everything seems too tough to handle, too big of a hurdle. Too much effort. I'm so tired that I can't do all the things that I think would make me happy. Then I think the things that would make me happy are far too superficial, so I don't want to aim for them, then I feel guilty for even thinking they'd make me happy and that I'd achieve them anyway.

For instance, I want to be a size 8 again, I'm nearly a 12 now yet only 2 years ago I'd fit into size 8 jeans.. I know that it's just a matter of cutting out the rubbish from my diet, and doing exercise. But then I feel to tired to go to the gym, or can't afford it. I could do exercise at home, but always give up. And as for my diet, well when I crave something, I just can't not eat it. If I don't then I get annoyed and frustrated.

Another situation, is that as I aspire to be a musical theatre performer, my flexibility needs to be top notch. I know it's just a matter of stretching every day, but as I have a slight injury that can't be checked over by a physio for ages, I feel like I can't stretch, even though that's only one leg, and only affects box splits.

I have excuses for everything, then I start hating myself for that too. Looking back over what I've written, it feels like someone else is writing, I KNOW this isn't me, I used to be the happiest person ever, so confident and outgoing. Then *something* happened... but who knows what. But I'm not the same person I used to be and that's heartbreaking.

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by: Kay

Thank you for contacting Positive Personal Growth. The first thing I would suggest, if you haven't already done it is a visit to your doctor. You may have an under active thyroid, or a lack of iron, both which could make you feel how you do at the moment.

If you know your body is healthy, then the problem is definitely involved in the self limiting thoughts you have. Every positive thought you give yourself you cancel out with a negative one. Each thought you have that you put into action becomes your reality, and when you act on the negative one this is they way you are.

The attitude you have throughout your day is vital. A negative attitude brings negative results, so it's only right that positive thoughts bring a positive outcome. Every thought you have forms your life.

The answer to how you are is inside your mind and you are the only one who can change yourself. You can be happy, confident and outgoing again simply by changing your thought patterns.

When you think seriously about this, I hope you will come to realise that it really is this simple, and totally within your control if you put your mind to it.

Change your attitude today, and change your life. You can do it, I know you can!


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