insecure, low self esteem, anxiety..social anxiety and very jealous.
I have no confidence in my self at all. I weigh 140 and I think I'm so fat and ugly. I have the worst hair in the world, it's medium length with straw like curls. Just talking about it makes me sick!! Ii totally hate myself!
I'm so jealous of every woman, I just wish I was someone else. I am married, and this totally drives my husband nuts! We fight constantly. I am always accusing him of looking at other women, and I'm always attacking him with remarks like...you think that girls hot....or you're looking at that woman..I saw you look at her.. i'ts just constant bickering. I don't trust him, and really don't trust anyone.
I'm a total wreck, I give myself a headache. I'm too much to handle :( I wish there was help out there for me. It's getting to the point I don't even want to leave the house!!
I'm always comparing my self to other women! Constantly beating myself up over everything. I buy so much makeup..I try so hard to look better and I have tons of clothes and I'm still NOT happy with anything I buy. I spend hours in the mirror, and when finished I'm totally even worse off than when I started. I don't like this strange person I am, and I've been like this ever since Iwas a teen.
I just want it all to stop and I want to learn how to love myself and enjoy life like a normal human being. Please someone help and give me some advice.