I'm not good enough
Well anyway I'm 12 almost 13 and I'm actually crying as I write this because I know everything I'm going to tell is true and what I really think and feel about myself. I feel (i know) I will never be be good enough to be popular everyone in my school is "labeled" and I guess I'm labeled as "just the regular kid" I'm really shy and hate speaking in front of the class and what makes me even more sad is my friend she was home schooled and she came to public school and the first day she got here 2 guys already liked her and she went out with one of the the first day of school (and broke up with him the next day) and now she's popular and I have been trying to be popular and get at least someone to like me for 3 years..
I'm shy to talk too guys in groups because I know I am and never will be good enough for them anyway and people say I'm nice and pretty but even some of my friends talk behind my back and stuff.. and just feel like a nobody like hardly anyone even knows my name all the popular people ignore me just like I'm a piece of dust.
Also none of my friends are in my classes so it's just even worse.. how come I'm not good enough?!? No guy is gonna ever want me for prom or homecoming :( I'm so helpless and sad. Even my teachers don't hardly even know I'm there.. I've thought about suicide but I would NEVER actually would do it but if I did I bet nobody but my family would notice anyway.
I know people are just gonna say stuff like "it seems like you don't like yourself" and all that crap and I don't really like myself so tell me something I don't already know like some advice on helping myself and stuff please..