I lost my boyfriend because of low self esteem
(pittsburgh, pa )
My ex boyfriend and I had a huge misunderstanding and broke up. I realized after being without him that the problem was my self esteem. I hated myself.
I would watch him sleep and wonder why he was with me. I would not let him see me naked with a light on. He would tell me how beautiful I was but I didn't believe him.
After reaching rock bottom I am working on my self esteem. I can proudly say I can look at myself in a mirror longer than 2 seconds. I am starting to like myself. When I was with him I always had a wall up because I felt that if I let him in I would get hurt. I realized this too late.
I am trying to work things out with him. He texts and calls and we talk but he seems very distant. He said that he is crushed because I never listened to the things he said. How can I make him understand that when your self esteem is so low you can't stand to look at yourself, it ruins your relationships with people? I know he is very hurt and so am I.
Do you have any advice to help me with this problem?