I literally cant talk to people anymore.
My low confidence is becoming so impossible to even go to shops and buy things, I actually have to get my friends to top up my phone and buy food for me because I'm too scared to talk to the assistance. I cant talk to anyone I haven't known for years. I don't even know why I find it hard, my head just tells me to stay quiet and avoid eye contact.
I use music to block out new people not because I'm arrogant or anything (which is how I feel other people might see me :/) but because I panic too much about talking. I cant even ask teachers to help if I don't understand something.
Recently I've come out as Bi as well which lowered my confidence even more. I know low confidence isn't a major issue or anything but mine has gotten to the point where I start to wonder if there is something mentally wrong with me because its gone to ridiculous points and I even find it difficult to talk to my parents anymore.
I stay in my room with my music and rarely go out with my friends as their all very social and meet new people a lot. Also I hate my appearance which I know is a very typical teenager thing to say but it's really true and my friends are all very skinny and into fashion which means they can flaunt it as well where as I cover up as much as possible and wont wear anything that reveals my stomach (I'm quite large.)
I just don't know what to do anymore :/ Do I have a medical condition or something? Because no-one I know has these problems and I get so frustrated that I cant do anything without having huge amounts of doubt and being forced by others to do it- which normally, still doesn't work :(