I have no hope left.....I don't believe things will get better
I use to be a half glass full girl and through a life of chaos and therapy, I became one with myself and was happy to be alive. Now after two years of shear struggle and bad news after bad news, I can't even enjoy any type of good news.
I already take anti depressants, I wake up sad and cry all day. I miss me and my glass being half full, I miss enjoying the little triumphs of life. I am empty and scared and alone and have lost everything, my great credit standing, my dignity and again most of all my hope for a better day. Any words will help me to believe again. I can't even afford to buy food and I had plenty of everything that I worked for, my utilities are about to be shut off and I am facing eviction.
I have a property in Maine that I am about to lose, how can I over come this when I can't even get out of bed in the morning. A triumphant day to me is taking a shower. Please, anything anyone can say, please say it to me. Give me steps to follow, a chant I can use.
Help me believe I would not be better off another way. I toy with suicidal thoughts now and can feel these thoughts progressing. It's all about money and not having enough to survive. I am not looking for money, just hope, just hope and to be able to believe that it does get better.