I hate this life!!
I think I am a very lovable guy!! I can't seem to find woman to stay with me. I was married the first time 13 years, the second 15 years.
I just lost a girlfriend she liked to drink, and gamble. I don't do those things. I dare not drink anymore, gambling is too boring. I guess what hurts is that she betrayed me. My two wives have also done the same.
I feel now I am not worth having around. I know I have friends, and family but this is not enough. I need female companionship.
I feel like a loser. I wish I could get out of this rut. Where I live this is all there is gambling, and alcohol. I can't leave my job here, and pursue another. I am close to retirement.
I hope there is someone out there to help me. I am afraid I will end it all soon.