How does one begin rise above the anxiety of being in public and feeling less then others?
(St Johns , NL)
My problem is that I feel ugly, beneath everyone. I am afraid of being in public for fear of being mocked and laughed at.
I know realistically that not everyone views me as I do myself but saying it and believing it is a totally different thing. I feel that I am unworthy, undesirable and that no one could possibly like the person that I am.
I could go on to list how I view myself but it would take a long time.I want to be a stronger, more confident woman. Who will not be afraid to speak up, to say what is on my mind. I no longer want to be held back by fear of how others view me. What they think of me.
I want to feel as important and as valuable as other people, not shrink away and then be angry and down on myself for not being true to me and and the person I could be.I want to have faith in and believe in myself. I do not know how to get past this.
I have tried self help. affirmations, meditation the whole deal but I always come back to feeling something is lacking. I realize that there are others who feel similar to what I do and think it would be beneficial if I could have contact with such people.
Sometimes it is helpful to know that another understands. It will be less lonely knowing that support is available because obviously others who are confident would not understand.
Do you know of such resources support groups via the net. Your help would be much appreciated.