He hurt me in the past, now I'm extremely insecure & I've lost trust.
I've been with my boyfriend for a year & a half, but we have known each other for 4 years. We were seeing each other for 2 years & having sexual contact, however I really wanted to be in a relationship with him, but he always had an excuse not to be.
Whilst he was seeing me, he wasn't over his ex & he would also chat up other girls and would keep things from me. This made me feel worthless because I really wanted to be with him (which he knew) & yet he was constantly seeking other women. Over the years, I changed the way I looked so he would like me more. I have lost all my confidence & I don't feel good enough for him. He's in love with me now & he tells me I'm beautiful everyday, but I find it hard to believe because he never wanted me in the first place.
I've never been a jealous person, but I am now. I feel like I can't introduce him to my friends because he might want them, or generally go out to places. I've stopped him from watching porn which he says he has, but I'm not sure if I believe it. I love him so much, but it's hurting me 24/7. I don't know what to do, please help?