I am getting into a depression phase. I'm feeling so bad that I don't sleep as usual. I lost weight. And I feel there's a heavy thing on my heart that makes me hard to breath.
I am in a relationship with someone I love. And he also loves me. Everything was going good. I was so happy with him. Till the day when we had a fight because I lied to him about something I thought was trivial. And he hates lying.
We had a big fight and he slapped me on my face and did other physical violence. It wasn't harmful I was not injured. But deep down inside I'm hurt. I love him so much. But since then I am thinking that he's going to beat me all the time if we got married. He is saying that I am imagining something that will not happen. Or if it happened it will be 2 or 3 times in the lifetime.
My problem now is that I love him. I can't take the decision to leave and at the same time I am so scared and I think it is better to leave. The two choices are so hard for me.
What shall I do??