Fear of everything.
There really isn't much to say, the title explains it all. Ever since I started at my new school I've been afraid. I had so much confidence before, I felt like the king of the world. I really did, now I feel like the dirt that the king walks on. I feel pathetic, demoralized, and weak. I physically find myself hideous and I am always the silent one, when I talk I am questioned and I hate confrontation. I sit in the corner of class. Aside from the school, I cannot control my thoughts which lead to even worse fear. I cannot think straight. It scares me beyond all reason, every hour or so I see myself dying.
My parents do not care, and would not understand even if they did care. I am 13 in 7th grade in Middle School, and I have no way of overcoming this from my sight. I cannot go to my psychiatrist because my father believes he'll just tell me what I 'already know'. Can someone please share some insight on this subject? I've never opened up like this. And I would love some help and or advice.