fear and failures
I am a postgraduate(computer science. In childhood i had great fear of strangers. Teachers seemed to be ghosts. But at the age of 14 I improved a little, but I was bad in my studies. I managed to have first class (70%)marks. I studied for exams, just 2 days before the exam, so, all was in a hurry.
During my degree second year exams, my grandmother's death on the day before exam made me fail in the exams. That was a big failure in my life. but Ii happened to attend a personality class, and after that I had positive thinking and in my postgraduates I got first prize in studies (first and second year). Then my confidence level lowered. In third year I got only eighth position in my class. Now, my confidence level is zero. My friends all got jobs in companies. I didn't even approach any for a job (that much fear). I am now feeling that I am a big failure... I want to succeed in my life.
From childhood itself I didn't knew what I should become? so, I am confused of what goal I should set? mba/m.a psychology/mtech/job/something else? please help..