Chronic fear and depression every day
I am encouraged to find this site. Thank you for sharing yourself with others and for providing an outlet for those who are suffering from depression/anxiety, etc.
That's me. I'd rather not say how old I am but just to say that I am old enough that living where I am and not having anything successful in my life has been eating away at me. This has been going on for over three years. But I can see that it goes way back into my teens as well.
Like many out there, I have tried and am in therapy, medications and psychiatrists, meditation and still, I have this ghastly, awful horrible feeling that my life is worthless because I am too old and have yet to achieve anything lasting that I can be proud of and it's too late.
I am not, nor have I ever been married, not even engaged! Have no children and am living in a friend's house paying him some rent because my finances are so bad.
I feel too depressed and shaky to apply for a job and am living basically on savings. I feel like I have no more chances to lead a positive life and be happy. This leads right into thoughts about suicide.