Afraid of positive thinking
I am afraid that if I change to positive thinking that I will somehow lose what I am or what makes me, ME. I am afraid that I will compromise with people who I oppose vehemantly based on my principles, give up the battle, I have waged (with them or about them) for so long. I will be perceived as someone stupid who was wrong all along, now has seen the light of day as other(s) have been saying.
I am afraid that with positive thinking, I will somehow see things from the others view point, and will compromise on my morals. As everyone knows even a criminal thinks somehow he is right. So my positive thinking may involve a thought "I can and should get along with that person" or "I should see things from others viewpoint". I don't want to give up my morals or my thinking.
I am afraid that positive thinking might change me for the worse, I am sure there will be some benifits too.
I have a lot of (stupid but justified in my twisted mind)reasons for not being positive, I just listed two.
How and where am I wrong????? and what to do about it.