afraid of being looked down upon
I know my problems apply to many other students seeking entry into university. In my country, those who cant make it into the elite universities will be "thrown" into this XXX university ( private university).
As such, people always label students from XXX university as losers and rejects of those elite universities. in addition, graduates from this XXX university do not have good job prospects as many employers prefer to hire graduates from those elite university. Unless you are the top few students from that university attaining first class honours, finding a job with an average pay or even just finding a job is a concern.
I know to tell others I am in XXX university is not something to be proud of. Instead it is something that one is ashamed to say. Sometimes, I really feel like ending my life and starting afresh as we can never turn back the clock. I often live in the past, continuously regretting and blaming myself for not scoring better grades in my final year examination.
What should I do? I really don't know how am I going to survive my next 3 years in that university. I cant stand the embarrassment when I tell people I am from XXX university.