I hate myself I hate everything about me. My life has been nothing but pain and hurt and a little to no happy times. My friends and school mean everything to me my family life is pure pain and hurt my dad is an alcoholic my mum a broken b*tch who hates me.
My family does try hard to provide for us however they are unreasonable b*stards my mum keeps telling me I'm ugly useless and she wished she could ship me off to some far away place she blames me for everything bad in her life shes horrible to me she makes me out to be some b*tch child that's out of control but I'm not I don't drink smoke never had a boyfriend don't go out with friends I'm extremely lonely sometimes and I look forward to school.
My dad has issues can't handle stress so he drinks and then my parents fight really bad it's terrible. I hate my home life I'm always sad and depressed and lonely and I feel victimised all the time. I'm the oldest and only girl so they're much stricter on me that my younger brothers. I'm ugly and I'm reminded of that by my mum she tells my whole family how horrible I am but I don't do anything wrong maybe I have mumble under my breath once or twice but that doesn't make me a devil child.
I feel depressed and sad and in need of comfort so bad I pray to god hoping things would get better but recently I feel so distant from him because of stress and depression I'm losing hope. I just wanna have a happy loving family I'm depressed I want these feeling to stop.