16 female

by Loser
(Uk)

I hate myself I hate everything about me. My life has been nothing but pain and hurt and a little to no happy times. My friends and school mean everything to me my family life is pure pain and hurt my dad is an alcoholic my mum a broken b*tch who hates me.

My family does try hard to provide for us however they are unreasonable b*stards my mum keeps telling me I'm ugly useless and she wished she could ship me off to some far away place she blames me for everything bad in her life shes horrible to me she makes me out to be some b*tch child that's out of control but I'm not I don't drink smoke never had a boyfriend don't go out with friends I'm extremely lonely sometimes and I look forward to school.

My dad has issues can't handle stress so he drinks and then my parents fight really bad it's terrible. I hate my home life I'm always sad and depressed and lonely and I feel victimised all the time. I'm the oldest and only girl so they're much stricter on me that my younger brothers. I'm ugly and I'm reminded of that by my mum she tells my whole family how horrible I am but I don't do anything wrong maybe I have mumble under my breath once or twice but that doesn't make me a devil child.

I feel depressed and sad and in need of comfort so bad I pray to god hoping things would get better but recently I feel so distant from him because of stress and depression I'm losing hope. I just wanna have a happy loving family I'm depressed I want these feeling to stop.

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16 female
by: Anonymous

You need some help outside of your family, it is not your fault they are like they are and unfortunately there are too many families like yours. You are coming up to be able to be independent in another couple of years and time will go by quickly.
Is there a family member like grandparents to whom you could go to for help or support or social services. If it is too difficult, you may be able to go into foster care for a while to get away from them or seek some form of counselling to help you deal with your dysfunctional family. Whatever happens it is not your fault. Both your parents are sick and dysfunctional and you have to give them allowance for that. Just accept that they are what they are and that you will be able to rise above that and not let them get at you You will need some form of counselling to help you to see what you are capable of doing with your life. Other people from such families have gone on to lead good and productive lives and there is no reason why you should not do the same.

Problems
by: Kay

You are having a hard time of it lately with the problems your parents are going through. Keep as positive as you can about yourself. It's important that you don't believe the negative things you are being told because if you do you will drag your emotions down and will find it hard to cope as you grow into the lovely young woman I know you can be.

Your self talk is very important at all times, don't pay into the 'you are ugly comments' because every one is beautiful but in different ways. Let yourself know often that you are a beautiful, worthwhile person. When you think these thoughts, although you may not believe them at the moment, they will, in time, become true to you.

How you are is the result of your own thoughts. Everything you do is the result of your thought. No one can choose them but you. When you aren't happy with how you are you hold the key to changing. No one can do this for you, only you.

Stay positive when all around you is not how you would wish it to be. It's what's inside you that's important, and when you feel good about how you are you will cope.

Good luck

Love
Kay
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