port wine birthmark makes me feel inferior

by marti jean
(georgia)

I have lived with a port wine birthmark on the left side of my body, except my face, for 63 years. Lately I have started feeling really inferior, as my husband has seemed to not love me anymore, except as a sister or friend. his attention is towards younger women, or women who pay him attention.

In the past, I was doing o.k. because I am pretty and am out going, and thought I was also confident, but it seems my confidence depends on others point of view. Living with rejection from the world is hard. I am getting older and know I need to work on my confidence, but can't seem to find it when there is so much I can't do-like; swimming, wearing shorts, summer dresses.. I just get hot in the summer and watch my face get older. Is there some way to reach him and get his love again, or do I just concentrate on me and forget him. I wrote before, but in reading the response, I realized my problem was deeper. I am sharing this for the first time, my deformed skin affliction.
Thank you,