Nothing good in life
Had a bad time with my dad when we were younger, he pushed my mum about a lot & cheated for many yrs, after having children with someone else he left, then when she had enough he came back. He was never there for any of us, has gone through stages where he has said he hates all of us & we're not his children.
Then I met a guy at 16 I fell madly in love with - only for him to do the same. I put up with him cheating & treating me like crap for 2 yrs then finally woke up when the other girl was going to have his baby. Unfortunately I continued to stay 'friends' with him, over the last 6 yrs haven't been able to like anyone else anywhere near how I did him. Don't really trust men anymore, or people in general.
I lost most of my friends, had 3 miscarriages while everyone else around me is settling down with kids, a good man etc.
Hate my job & just hate life really! Finally stopped talking to this guy after 6 yrs as I know I'm never going to move on properly till I do. I'm just very bitter & angry these days so I'm probably the nicest person at times either!
Have a very low self esteem, no confidence & don't know what to do anymore! I just want to be more positive, confident, courageous, trusting! I wanna do well in life & enjoy it, just don't know how!