Low Self Confidence
My main problem is that I suffer from varying bouts of low self confidence, low self esteem and anxiety.
Normally my low self confidence causes anxiety and I start stuttering when I talk. It's like I get too self conscious, too scared about how people are judging me and what they may be thinking about me. I have gone for counseling and it has helped, but sometimes I get these attacks (especially if I have a bad experience)
Part of the problem is that I was bullied in high school and never had many girl friends (friends and romantically) as I was too shy and I feel those effects are still acting.
A lot of the times I know what the solution is to my problems but my fears and issues keep preventing me from dealing with them. I feel that I will get rejected, humiliated, scorned (which has happened quite a few times in the past) I know that not all people are mean and that there are nice ones too, but I still have that social fear unfortunately and I'm on my guard most of the time.
I feel like I can't connect with people and lack many friends at this point. Please do tell me how I can break free of this cage I've made for myself.