I get upset when my boyfriend goes out without me
I have been with my boyfriend for a year now. We are very happy and I see him as my future husband. Since he started working he goes out every weekend. It got to the point where he was going out every Friday and Saturday, and then I was ready to leave, but he changed for me and now he only goes out once a week.
Before he was going out without me, now we go out together once a week, same place but we spend some time with each other and some time with friends. However, tomorrow he is going out without me, because all the people he knows are coming out without their partners. They are work people. And this is where I get upset again. I hate being on my own at night and waiting for him. He is always back about 12 so I am not worried about this. But for some reason I always get upset when he is out without me. I don't know whether it is because my mother left me and my brother when I was 4 years old or because my father and my step mum were drinking a lot and my father was beating her up, and now I have moved away from them.
I don't know what it is and I really tried to sort it out myself, but I can't and I am afraid that I will ruin my relationship because of it. I haven't got any friends here, I do, but not the ones I could spend some time with when he is out to take my mind off it, because the things they do is not me.
I just don't know what to do with me anymore.