suffuring is too much for me

by olorato modise
(BOTSWANA ARFICA)

I am a lady of 36years of age, living in Africa.Life has been so bad for me for the past 32years.when i was 3and half years i had water burn that almost took my life, i was told that i was hospitalized for a very long time, but i made it at last.

My life never been peaceful since that incident my peers hated me because of the bad scares i had,but it didn't destroy me but strengthen me.academically a was not gifted, i struggled to pass my junior secondary school up to last year of my senior secondary, where i got a third class.that was when a night mare started,i went to do my national youth service.after that i tried to get a certificate course to start from somewhere that was to no avail, until i got a job as a clerk in a district council in on of the districts in my country ,the job was ok and very interesting,but my core workers hated me so much that i lost hope even more. things became worse each year that passed by,my life is hell.after many years i managed to get a diploma course , but it didn't improve my life in anyway, but it brought serious bad luck to my life.

My life is very stagnant, i have nothing at all, i cant even maintain my two girls, i have don't have a house, car, i am nothing and nobody, my marriage is having some problems, i have been working for 14 years but i have no promotion at all, now my health is also at stake i have high blood pressure, high cholesterol, protrusion of lower disc at my back, fibroid. I am always ill and always at the hospital.

I have lost hope in life, nothing has ever worked for me, indeed i am loser i have given up in life. if at all i have offended GOD in anyway i ask him to forgive from the deepest part of my broken heart