I have been in this relationship for a long time. now when I think about it, I feel I should have quit a long time ago. My boyfriend has been my first real love and I was hundred percent into this relationship. Maybe that's why I took all the craps and continued with it.
The problem is that he hurts me in many ways but never accepts having done them. In his opinion these things aren't supposed to hurt me or rather that I must not feel hurt when he does this or says that. I have tried breaking up many many times but he wouldn't let me. and eventually I would get back because I love him. I convinced myself that everything will be okay in the long run; that my love for him will make up for the things that are missing in this relationship. But now I am tired. Another thing is that although I was a great achiever once, he has belittled my confidence so much that I even thought, on many occasions, that I was a loser. I can see that this relationship won't last, as there's no love from either side, but he wants to keep going and I don't know for what reason. Is it for convenience? or just that with me around, he 'll have somebody to trample on?