Not a good enough daughter..

I feel ashamed to be in public, I am constantly trying to cover myself with sweaters, I never wear just a t-shirt unless of in front of my boyfriend because I feel he's the only person in my life that's never had an issue with my weight but my father and 3 older brothers have always had an issue with me, even when I wasn't fat.

They all think they can say things to me because its the right thing for my health. I feel like I'm not good enough for them because I'm unhealthy.. I don't get why people don't understand that I face the fat everyday I get up and look in the mirror, I know I'm fat and it makes me hate myself where I don't like looking in the mirror.

When I go to parties I hide from the cameras because I'm afraid someone will take a disgusting picture of me and then put it on facebook. I always turn away or just I don't want my picture taken and get really defensive.

The biggest problem I have is my Dad though because he has an image of a perfect daughter in his head and I don't live up to those expectations at all, and I just want to be close to him and not have to worry about all that I know I need to lose weight and Ive been trying to get myself in an healthier eating habit, it's just hard.

I feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders its hard for me to go outside and walk I feel like I'm being judged by everyone who passes.. I'm 260 pounds 5"7... help me!