no energy and no motivation
by lost girl
I'm really having a hard time finding happiness in this world. A year ago I tried to commit suicide because my life has been one wild roller coaster that I get so tired of riding... I don't know what to do with this body I live in and I don't have any interests that i'm good at..
I was born a boy and at the age of 20 I started becoming a woman, after 6 yrs of hormones, prostitution, surgery, and $50,000 medical/credit debt... I finally completed the process... the problem now is that I have absolutely no idea what to do with the rest of my life.
For the past 2 yrs I've been stripping and still going through some other surgeries as a result of the transition, and I find that stripping is not much better than the "escorting" I used to do. I'm also bored, I didn't have any interest or energy to go to college and it seems like everything I attempt to get involved in just isn't the right fit for me.
Life is passing by and I'm 28 now and after being on zoloft amongst other things I've decided to ditch the pills and try to be happy naturally....I'm so lost but pretend to be at least content for my mom because she worries so much and my happiness affects her... please help :(