I hate myself because I have no confidence at all. I am scared to make decisions out of fear of what someone might think about it. I am not good with people because I feel I don't fit in with anyone, I call myself a loser everyday and I just want to cry until I feel better.
I compare myself to everyone and always think they are better than me. I feel nothing I do is good enough and if one person, just one feels differently about something I have done or am doing I give up on it because I think everyone elses opinion means more.
I am very jealous of everyone I feel has the confidence I wish I could have. I tell lies to people in hopes of getting some attention, I can't look others in the eye because I feel less than others.
The way I feel has affected the way I act to the point where it has cost me chances to do things with my music and has destroyed some friendships and is causing major problems with my wife and son.
I am only 25 but I feel like my life is over there is so much more. I just wish someone would help me