My life

My life isn't a fairy tale
but it is not a horror
there are hard times and
then there are hard
but all I have seen
is mostly hard
I wonder why was I born oldest
why was I born at all
was I born to comfort you
or just to be your maid
the hardest time in my life
is feeling I'm trapped in another
universe banging to get out
it makes me feel
am I an accident or
was I born for a reason

Then when I go to sleep
I see my life as a fairy tale
me and my family are sitting around a table
laughing with a heart for show
I hope everyday that might happen
before I wither away