Ok so i'm 12 years old and i have a problem with having confidence in myself. Everything is a struggle to do without thinking about how I look when I do it. Even going down to tie my shoe puts a thought in my head that everyone's watching me with cruel hateful eyes.
Some days are worse then others, some days I start crying for no reason and others I'm as happy as can be. I always look in the mirror and think "Whats wrong with me?". On my worst days I insult myself, saying how ugly I look, how different I look from everyone else.
Sometimes it gets so bad that I need to be left alone because I'm unable to speak. I cant walk anywhere by myself without the thought of people staring. I'm scared of how much worse this will get, how much worse the insults will get. How much worse will I become? And how much longer until I decide what to do with my life knowing that in the back of my head, something is telling me that I am a worthless loser, a waste of space, just another mouth to feed in the world. Someone, anyone, help me...