life is a bitch

by Allen T
(Cape Canaveral Florida)

I am 29 and more lost than ever. been drinking and smoking pot for too long.... my brain is toast. I feel that there is no way for me to have a normal life. Perhaps I missed to starting gun... the green light.... whatever the f**k you call it. I'm sick of my life and if these feelings get any worse I don't know whats gonna happen. when you don't have any prospects for jobs, being a convicted felon for a goddamn possession charge you wonder if it's better to just put a 45 caliber round through the skull.