I'm 29 years old Christian and I hate living with my mother. I hate my life

by c
(Oak Park,IL)

Most of my life has been a series of hardships and heartbreaks. I try to be a decent person, I work really hard in school and work. I don't get any reward. I can't even get a break. My family is falling apart and the men in my family are unreliable which leaves my 56 year old mother to be very dependent on me. She sends me to the store, mall, etc. and she won't even do some of these things herself. Even though I help out, she makes me feel like I don't do enough and it goes for education and more.

I never experienced life because so much has happened to me (going to college homeless, depression, death in the family). In college, I dreamed of being a working artist, traveling and making money doing what I love. Now most of the time, I am exhausted from the stress of school, family and survival. I just want to go to sleep and never wake up. Please help me.