ILL AND TIRED, JUST NEED TO DIE

by Ben
(usa,tx)

I AM VERY ILL AND TIRED.
I HAVE NO WILL TO GO ON.
I AM NOT ABLE TO TAKE CARE
OF MYSELF, I NEED THE COURAGE
TO END THIS SUFFERING BUT I DON'T
EVEN HAVE THAT.I'M AT THE END OF
MY ROPE HANGING BY A THREAD AND CAN'T
LET GO.I WISH I KNEW HOW TO GET SOMETHING
TO TAKE INTERNALLY TO JUST PEACEFULLY END THE
SUFFERING. IF ANYONE HAS ANY ADVICE, I WILL BE MOST GRATEFUL IF YOU PLEASE LET ME KNOW, THANKS,BK
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THIS DISEASE STALKS ME,
AS IT SLOWLY TAKES AWAY THE LIFE
THAT I ONCE HAD...
NOW I HAVE A LIFE OF PAIN,
BOTH EXTERNAL AND INTERNAL...
I FIGHT A BRUTAL FIGHT EACH AND EVERY DAY

NO LONGER AM I THE ONE THAT IS FULL OF
"LIFE".
NOW I AM THE ONE FULL OF ANGER AND PAIN.
IF I COULD HAVE MY LIFE BACK TO
BEING THE SAME...
I WOULD-BUT THAT IS A DREAM THAT
IS NOT A PART OF MY LIFE ANYMORE.
SO, NOW I GO ON LIVING AND
SUFFERING
TRYING TO BE
"ME".
THIS STALKING WOLF IS ALWAYS
BEHIND-
IN FRONT-
BESIDE-
INSIDE...
OF+ME!
THERE IS NOWHERE TO RUN
AND THERE IS NOWHERE TO HIDE.

SO NOW MY LIFE IS ONLY
A LIFE OF PAIN,
WHERE I KNOW THAT I WILL NEVER BE THE
"SAME".
I
JUST NEED PEACE...
PLEASE, UNDERSTAND AND LET ME BE...