I shouldn't.. but I am

by Steph
(indianapolis, IN)

I'm a 29 year old woman... on paper my life should be nothing to complain about. I have a good steady job.. a big family that loves me.. 2 dogs that make my house feel full. But all of the time I feel so sad. I was supposed to be married by now (engaged and broke up) and I'm back to not believing in love or trust or commitment. It seems any guy I meet is only interested in getting laid.. and whether or not you comply, they don't call you.. I used to play the game.. I'd toss them aside like garbage.. but now I'm older I just don't have the same mind-set.

Anybody I meet through friends makes me just one of the guys to another guy.. I feel unwanted.. like a huge loser.. I know I'm a good person and attractive.. but I can't make myself feel that way! I need to feel validated as a person and a woman but anything I do doesn't seem to do that.. living life with no regrets has seemed to give me plenty.