by Sweet dreams
Hi, I am 20 years old. Ive been working and paying rent, helping my family out since I was 15. I live at home with my mom, dad, brother, and his girlfriend. My room is the living room.
I got my license but I don't have a car. According to everyone I suck at driving....... Yet I've never hit or crashed....... anyways besides that when I was young I never thought I was smart. My confidence sucks. I try and save money it doesn't really happen. Its always going to my family. I don't have a real bed. I don't have many friends I'd say I have one.
My biggest issue is I am so lost and depressed I don't want to be around anyone. I force myself to smile while at work. My best friend I once had ended up on drugs. I want to go to college. I also have to work........... My dad is constantly threatening to kick my bro and I out. Even though we pay rent, cook, and clean. I wish I could have a different life because mines just crumbing to pieces.
When I was 17 a guy I loved got hit by a car. He survived but I've never been the same since. He's not the same at all he can not remember if you call him talk to him. But he knows he loves God...... I used to know God but I feel forsaken.... Left to deal with everything on my own... I know I sound pathetic but I was hoping this might help me.