Despair from things that have happened; low confidence.
I am 29 years old, male. I had a large operation on my chest when I was 16. It has affected my relationships with women a lot.
I have rarely had sex and I had a relationships with a girl for 4 months and I was not able, dysfunction. It has scarred me big time.
And with the scars on my chest, I have lost friends and working in the job I am working in is becoming a problem. It feels like I could shut down, but I know I cannot allow this to happen.
I also lost one of my 'best friends' as he seemed to be making a joke out of me.
Ever since this girl left 2 years or so I have had to fight very hard through what feels like a never ending nightmare, where am I going to get my confidence from now, my chest always had an affect on me, but know I don't know what I can do.
I could go on for hours about all this but I'm sure you don't want to read pages. That is it in a nutshell.
I'm going back to work tomorrow, but I just feel like curling up under a blanket, honestly. When you fight for 6 months, then a year, then 2 years. It takes it out of you.
Maybe I should not be fighting but the things that have happened make me want to quit and the fight is not quitting.